Yesterday night I could not sleep properly, not because I was tired, not because I was thinking about my dream-girl, not because i was doing something important ;) on internet till late night, not because of late night strong coffee at some campus dhaba (food joint).
Stop guessing guys.... next day was TOPIK RESULT DAY. I was just worrying about how much embarrassment the next day is going to bring. I was pretty much sure that it will bring some.. I was just worried about its degree.. ;)
When I applied for the TOPIK intermediate level in Feb this year, I was full of confidence and enthusiasm. A number of plans were there in mind. Memorizing how many words per word would be sufficient??? I think I must finish the grammar part of all four textbooks from the Yonsei Univ.... I have to listen (haha I can't write) hours of Korean per day... I must write at least one small article everyday in Korean..... and i don't remember how many more crazy plans... hahaha... If I had been able to go according to that schedule for even 3 months I would have been able to translate Ramayana and Mahabharata into Korean by now...
Dammit!!!! God dammit!!!---- this was what was coming out of my mouth a few days before TOPIK exam date. I had studied literally nothing, leave the f***ing plans.
I had not only wasted a Rs. 500 bill in the f***ing TOPIK application form but in fact i was going to get a good deal of embarrassment. How proud will my friends, juniors, seniors and teachers feel when a class topper with 8.3/9 grade will fail in TOPIK 3rd level and that too after completing the graduation..
But then I read some Shiv Khera and Swet Morden articles :) and gathered some courage and did some study just a few days before exams. Solved some previous papers and revised the grammar patterns I already knew. there was no time to learn new ones.
The day came and I sat in the exam. the first section of first paper (Grammar & Vocabulary) was really a cakewalk. I got really confident and proudly ordered a junior volunteer to bring a bottle of water after finishing this section. But that junior must have cursed me a lot. After the first 10 or 15 questions of next section (writing), I was feeling a strong urge to go to toilet. :) It was damn difficult... anyway I finished it somehow and took a sigh of relief. I was sure that I will get at least 40 (the danger zone line) if not 50.
After the first section was over I went to library canteen with Gangesh and Jitendra, my friends, and had a cup of tea. For me, a cup of tea before an exam works better than a revision of the syllabus. ;) ...... I m not kidding.....
In the next paper, the listening part was really easy but the worst was yet to come. I still remember the miserably sad and pitiful faces of students in the rooms. I am sure If Kaushal sir (the examiner in our room) had the answer sheets at that time, he would have surely given us. ;)
After this section, all the enthusiasm was gone. And the next few days before 1st June (The result day) were like we were goats waiting to be slaughtered.
...... So I was saying that I couldn't sleep properly on the night of 31st May. Generally I get at 12:30 PM during holidays (Hey! don't stare me like that) but today my eyes opened automatically at 7:30AM. I switched on my PC, opened the TOPIK website, entered the details and pressed ENTER.
This was what was there on the screen after a few seconds :-
And this is how my face was like after seeing it:-
If...If... Only If.. I had got 2 more percent... 8 more marks... If...If... Only If.. I had followed my so-called f***ing plans for even a day................................
